Jumat, 25 Maret 2011

get bored of.... my blog?

hey! okay, skip the bla bla bla...

bosan yee sama blog aku? sama sih. aku juga bosan.
harap maklum ajalah ya, hidup aku hampa banget tahun ini. ga ada yang bisa diceritain.
pacar ga punya, gebetan ga punya, prestasi yang membanggakan ga punya, holiday story ga punya, foto-foto yang bisa dipamerin ga punya, cerita menarik ga punya. sedih banget ya aku? iyee emang.
jadi maaf banget-bangetan kalo post aku sebelum-sebelumnya asik lirik lagu atau ngga cerpen yang so a.m.a.t.i.r.a.n.
bakat ga sih aku jadi penulis? (terserah deh mau jawab apa aku ga peduli) yang pasti aku ga bakat jadi penyanyi jadi cuma bisa nulis lirik lagunya doang.

sempat sih biar yang baca (sukur kalo ada yang baca) ga bosan, pengen ganti template atau apalah gitu yang bisa 'menarik' pembaca biar terus berkunjung ke blog aku. ya tapi apa daya aku tak kuasa bila tiada kau disisiku~~ (elahh kok?) aku kurang srek sama template yang lain. emang template yang ini udah pas banget. unyu lagi kayak aku haha.

eh bosan banget ya ini post elahhh.
udah deh ya, doain aja aku cepat punya pacar, gebetan, prestasi, holiday story, foto, dan cerita yang bisa aku tulis di blog aku yang tak seberapa ini.
selanjutnya sih mungkin bakal tetap kayak sebelumnya, lirik lagu dan cerpen a.m.a.t.i.r.a.n.
nikmati ajalah ya hehe

kalo ga sanggup hidup tanpa aku (apadehh) sini sini invite, add, follow, atau apalah itu istilahnya

facebook : Novita Sari (maaf sebelumnya, anda pasti saya confirm. tapi maaf sekali lagi, saya tidak menerima 4l4y. 4l4y anda dapat terlihat dari nama anda, foto anda, atau wall dan status anda. terima kasih)

twitter: @noviytasari (saya menerima followback. tapi maaf dua kali lagi, saya juga tidak menerima tweet yang kasar dan terlalu update (youknowlah). terima kasih)

pin: 22406C78 (pasti saya terima. tapi maaf tiga kali lagi, saya tidak menerima yang doyan broadcast message terlalu sering dan terlalu sangat panjang. terima kasih)

aku yang aktif cuma yang 3 biji itu aja. kalo pengen nanya-nanya silahkan deh di add, follow dan invite. kalo ga mau ya juga gapapa sih.

ahh, udahlah daripada jadi lebih bosan lagi mari kita ludahi saja post ini.

wassalam
hoek cuih!
Sometimes when people decide to leave you for good, you have to let them. There some things that far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them, you have to accept the cold harsh truth.
 The people that you can't live without, can live without you!

Sabtu, 19 Maret 2011

"nanti kamu mau lanjut kemana?"
"ha? uhm, belum tahu. mungkin ga di Medan. i've already get bored here."
"..." (shockedwordsever)

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10 years later

i was standing right there. it was evening but i still can saw sunset almost eaten by the earth (that's the way i called sunset). it spent so long, that i haven't seen his face. right in this place, we used to talked together, study together, laugh together. all happy things, i've spent with him is all here.

"long time no see. i miss you so bad!"

suara itu ga berubah sedikitpun.

aku menoleh ke asal suara, melihat dia. dia tersenyum, dia melangkahkan kaki ke depan, medekat ke arah ku. spontan dia memeluk ku, sangat hangat.

"aaaaa how could it be?! you have changed too much! but, look! i still know you! your the most beautiful eyes. korean eyes, that's the way you called them right?"
(aku tersenyum. semanis mungkin, setulus mungkin. ntah kenapa sangat mudah bagiku untuk melakukan senyuman itu saat ini)
"i really miss you so damn much!"
"me too"

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we were sitting, looking each other. i started the conversation.

"ehm, i need to say something."
"what? then say it!"
"it's been while, i've got your letter and your email..."
"then?what's happening? what's wrong?"
"uhm, i just don't know it could be like this. i never know that you will be back. i don't know you'll be here right now, right in front of me. i just don't know."
"just tell me what happened please." (his face, it changed! it is dark! it hurts me!)
"i'm tired of waiting."
"waiting for what?"
"waiting for you, i don't know about you for almost 10 years. and you just said that you'll be back and you said you want to meet me first. and you said you love me, you miss me everyday. and you said you are very sorry for leaving me so long. and you said... you said everything! everything which could made me fly, made me happy, made me smile and made me cry then."
"but, you replied..."
"i replied just see, i didn't mean to accept."
"..."
"i didn't mean to reject either. i've already had one."
"..."
"please just talk! i really sorry."
"i didn't mean to make you wait so long. i just... i don't know what i have to say. you just broke my heart, you really did. but then, i realized you did it because of me, my mistake. who's wrong in this case?"
"i really don't know."
"you don't have to say sorry."
"..."
"are you happy with him?"
"..."
"no problem, i'll be fine."
"yes, i am."
"well, then if you happy i am happy too. we can make a friendship, right?" (am i broke his heart and him? it was a unknown smile. he was lied. i know.)
"i thought, that's my part to say that."
"kamu perempuan yang baik, yang terbaik yang pernah aku temui. kamu juga berhak untuk mendapatkan laki-laki yang baik juga. mungkin aku bukan laki-laki yang baik itu. mungkin dialah laki-laki itu. melihat mu sekarang sudah cukup membuat ku senang. aku bahagia kalau kamu bahagia."
"thank you for everything. kamu juga laki-laki baik, kamu juga berhak mendapatkan perempuan baik. mungkin yang lebih baik dari ku. kita ga pernah tahu apa yang Tuhan rencanakan kan?"
"we'll see."
"yeah, just see."

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his letter
hey, well i miss you! haha, it spent so long right? do you still know me? still remember me? it's me! yeah, anak laki-laki yang selalu kamu temui di lapangan bola. i know you know me, cause you know i want cha! *eh. aku minta maaf ga ada kasih kabar hampir 10 tahun! tapi uhm, how could i say? i miss you. i really do. hehe.
uhm, how are you? i'll come to Indonesia 6 months later. i know it is too fast to let you know but aku ga sabar lagi! haha kita ketemu di lapangan bola itu lagi ya. i want to meet you first! i need to hear all about you! what you've done there! i know you are always as usual, an awesome girl. eh btw, itu masih lapangan bola kan sekarang?
and the last but not the end, i love you. for this one, i really do. 
wanna be my ice cream? (read: girlfriend)

i replied
well, you made me so shocked!!!
i'm gonna answer your questions.
yes, we'll meet. yes, i miss you. yes, it is too fast. yes, i'am an awesome girl. yes, i know and remember you. yes, i'm fine.
and the last but not the end haha well, just see.

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"if i could back to the past. if i could, i would say this 10 years ago. i would say how much i love you. how much i adore you. how much i really need you in my life. i won't be like this. i wont say "you'll be happy with him." cause i know you'll maybe would happy with him. but, what about me? am i happy without you?"

dia memeluk ku. sudah tengah malam, saatnya pulang.

Rabu, 09 Maret 2011

Hate You _ Mariah Carey

Once upon a time
We swore not to say goodbye

Something got a hold of us
And we changed
And you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairy tale just end up this way?


We went round for round
Till we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring
Not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye?


I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you
Oooh


This was a love
That no one
Not no one
Could explain

And I wish I could press reset and feel that feeling again
I sit and press rewind
And watch us every night
Want to pause it but I can't make it stay

We went round for round
Til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring
Not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye?


I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do

Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you
Oooh


No need to call my phone
Because I changed my number today
And matter fact I think I'm moving away (away)
Sorry the frustrations got me feelin' a way
And I just keep having one last thing to say
And I just want to hold you, touch you, feel you
Be Near you, I Miss you babe babe babe
(babe babe babe)

I am tired of tryin to fake through
But there is nothing I can do
Boy I can't wait to hate you


I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you
Break you down so low that there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you babe
Oooh

Minggu, 06 Maret 2011

it's not about 'how much?'. it's about 'who could?'

masih terotak kejadian tanggal 04-03-2011 di hari jumat itu. i thought that day gonna be awesome cause youknowwhyifyou'vereadmybloglongtimeago.... but i was totally really wrong...

hari senin kami (X-2) jadi petugas upacara bendera. seharusnya kami latihan hari sabtu. tapi karena hari sabtu itu bertepatan sama hari raya Nyepi, jadinya kami latihan hari jumat.
hari jumat cuma ada 3 mata pelajaran. B. Indonesia 2 les, Biologi 1 les dan Geografi 2 les. jadilah abis istirahat kami belajar geo bentar udah gitu ke lapangan buat latihan.
latihan upacara yang gak akan aku lupakan. that was awesome and fun. i just can't imagine how could it be on monday haha.
waktu berjalan, lonceng berbunyi dan kami pun pulang. well, we are (as a girl) took a picture (change it to pictures) for a minute (change it to minutes). then we went to our class, gossip, swept the class and bla bla bla till....

"aku beli minuman dulu ya di depan. ntar aku balik lagi"
"sepp"
"(check my bag, check my wallet, shock, almost cry) uang aku hilang. uang buku tata boga sama uang pribadi aku!!!"

oke, i know it's not the end of the world. but fyi uang tata boga itu Rp 180.000 dan uang aku pribadi Rp 70.000 and they gone!!!
first thing i thought it's not about how much is it gone (cause money it' not a big problem. i save money for situation like this bytheway) but i just can't believe who the hell could do this to me?! how could that jerk or bitch did that fucking thing?! still can't believe this for Godshake!!!

sekarang yang aku pikirin bukan masalah uangnya. aku bakal dapat uang hari senin dan tabungan juga banyak jadi ya itu bukan inti dari masalahnya. yang bikin terotak sumpah demi apapun itu adalah siapa?! siapa yang tega bikin kayak gitu sama aku?! gimana lah kalo pencurinya itu ketemu sama aku? dia ga ngerasa bersalah gitu? masih ada orang sejahat itu di dunia ini? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!
dan sekarang wali kelas ikut turun tangan and it's gonna be a really big problem.

so my plan:
1. abis upacara lgsg nyetor uang tata boga yang Rp 180.000 itu sama guru tata boga tanpa nyebutin tentang bla bla bla
2. bilang sama wali kelas kalo yang hilang itu uang pribadi Rp 250.000
3. pasrah kena ceramah (aku, kalo kena ceramah pasti nangis adohhh)

WishMeLuck